Sunday, February 28, 2010

I'm still gonna go with the flow,haha!

First of all,
I'm laughing like a psycho right now..haha!
Okay,let's make it right.
I know you want me to have a relationship now,and you'll be happy.
not to say i don't want but i don't have any feelings on them..
It's true,there are girls that had feelings on me but i dont have feelings on them,if i had relationship with them..what are they gonna get? HURT,they're gonna get hurt..and everyone describe me as a player,i am a player but i'm not now..everyone can say i'm a player who only know how to break people's heart..but do all of you understand me?..answer me,do all of you understand me.what's in me.who i really need?..do all of you understand?
When i wanna do something good,sure there are obstacle..c'mon.what the fuck is this?..
If i do something bad,all of you will stab me in the back..
Now i'm fucking trying to do good stuff,why can't y'all let me do some good stuff..
Why must i have obstacle when i'm up to something,please fuck me now!
When i had feelings on someone,sure there are tons of people also will have feelings on them,
If y'all want it so badly,fine..i'll give,you take..do i look like i give a fuck?..c'mon man,i don't give a fuck,not a fucking thing at all...NONE,
If y'all are not satisfied about i had feelings on someone,c'mon and please fuck with me..y'all can have that person,i don't mind..
Y'all can say i'm bullshitting,double face fucker,pretend to be good..it's up to all of you,if i said something bad..don't ever say that i didn't give a warning,
Don't even fucking say that i care bout girls more than friend,i give my friends 50%,girls that i love 50%..sometimes please understand me,what i'm really up to..
I'm getting sick and tired of all of you,don't force me to do bad things..i don't wanna do it anymore..i try to hold myself back now..
Seriously,i'm sick and tired of being a good person..i wish i can finish this fucking year faster,i dont wanna be good anymore..it's time for me to be bad again,it's time for all of you to see who am i,what kind of person i really am..
I don't give a damn shit about it,i don't give a chance..
Wanna play games with me,i'll play with all of you..
REMEMBER,
Anything all of you are not satisfied with,come and talk to me..

*I'm laughing like a bastard now..haha!

Bout feelings,No fucking comment!

For the girls that are waiting for me,
Look,i'm sorry..i just dont have feelings on all of you..i'm sorry,
but no matter what,we're still friends.

To dears,
I'm not repaying you by loving you,
You've change my life,
But i don't know why i have feelings on you,
It's okay if you dont wanna accept me,i just want us to be friends..
You must understand,why i treat you like my girlfriend..
You can say i'm stupid for waiting you,
Told you that i love you although we just only knew each other..
Neways,thanks for changing my life,i appreciate it..


*laughing like a psycho person now,
*please understand me,
*look into me,and see what's inside me,
*appreciate it peeps,

Start it with a smile,
End it with a smile,
:)

Friday, February 19, 2010

Missin' You!

17/2/09,

3rd day of chinese new year,
Us,consist of me,Dears and jasmine...
Mid Valley,
Woke dear up at 7,pity her..too early..haha..but she managed to woke up..
then we start texting each other luu,
Dears told me,she like the way i woke her up,thanks dears..can i wake you up everyday?
then at 9,i called dear again n wake her up again..but then we're texting.haha!
10++,we reached to our destination point..meet up with jasmine,
Ahhhh,movies..'valentines day'..but then i forgot to booked the tickets..then jasmine booked the tickets..then we hanged out at Burger King,talking about Burger King..near there was a shop,a shop that sells camera,television and etc.
While we're hanging out,suddenly there's a song played in there..goshh,those kind of song's driving me crazy..why they suddenly play that kind of songs?..haha!
But then they were afraid,why?..weirdness..there's no need to worry..just cheezle and dun worry..haha!
Then we walked around mid valley,gardens..we walked,we talked,we laughed..it was fun though..
Then at 1,3 of us went and line up at the reservation counter..then its our turn to collect the tickets..that guy ask for a reservation number..jasmine forgot the number..What?!..i say What?!..why jasmine? why?..the cinema was f-ing crowded!..we decided not to watch movie..so we took a walk to The Gardens,hanged out in borders..borders,something happened over there..i cant tell..let me n dears know about it..haha!..in mandarin,'Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi'..it means,a secret that can't be told..then we took a walk again,this time to Mph Bookstore,I played with the bible..stupidity..then i did something unexpected..what is it?..no no no,i already promise dear not to tell..but then we have pictures of it..hehe..PNC..the pictures are hidden,everything's safe..haha!..
Then bla bla bla,cant tell because its a secret between the three of us..hehe..
Thats it.

Something for dear,


I talk to you but it's not the same as touching you,
And everytime u whisper my name,i wanna run to you,
We'll be together,it wont be long,
But it feels like forever,and it's hard to be strong,

Baby cause' i'm missin' you now,
And it's drivin' me crazy,
How i'm needin' you baby,
I'm missin' you now,
Can't wait till i'm alone with you,
To show you how im missing you,

Wishin' you were here by my side is all that i can do,
Got my arms around my pillow at night,they should be holdin' you,
Thought i was stronger,how could i know,
I cant take this much longer,
It's so hard on my soul,

Baby i just cant wait,
Till i see your face,
Chase away the loneliness inside,

When you're close to my heart,
Right here in my arms,
Then and only then,
Will i be satisfied?
I'm missing you now..
Iloveya babes!


PS:
Dear,drink lots of water a..hot weather..u will easily get sick if u dun drink water..must drink au..if nt,i bite u..hehe..love ya babes!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

First of all,
i wanna say that im sorry to Izwanie cuz she's angry..im sorry dearie,(:
why is she angry?
she's angry because of us(me,mira,jas)..go without her,i went back home without telling her,i wanna tell her after she meet her ex..i duwan to disturb,
when i was in car,my mind was only you..im thinking of you,will you be lonely after i leave you alone?..will you miss me?..can she take care of herself when im not around?..gossh,im worried!
Valentine's coming,why must it falls on the same day as chinese new year?..why why why?
I want to celebrate with you...hmmps.
Well,its okay..i can celebrate it later..hehe..
Oh ya,before i forget..Wednesday,i tried to kiss her..but she dun let me kiss leh..haha!..dears,u said tha you're waiting for my kiss..but why when i wanna kiss u dat time,u dun let leh??..
Then on friday,we were planning to go mid valley for a movie,but then..aiyaa..pity you dears,then u went back home and changed..while waiting,i hang out with jas..it was quite fun though.haha..
then we hang out at SR(Secret Recipe)..jas ordered cake,amira too..i ordered lasagna for her..then i did something unexpected,i tried to kiss her!..haha!..but it did not turn out well..haha!..so while hanging out,suddenly leh..mira and dear said there's hair in that lasagna..WTF?!..disgusting!..yuckss!!!!!!!!...stupiakk gehh SR..then we complained,so we dont have to pay for the lasagna..haha!..
then we went back to WAHANA,then i called her to come down and see me..dear called me to go up,ok.i went up and called her to come out and see me..my plan was to kiss her,then i called her to look at me and i said i wont do anything..but then i tried to move my lips close to her lips..well,our lips did touched but just a lil bit..haha...then she sulk,then i ask and ask and ask..then she said dun ever2 text her or call her..i was thinking,'What should i do? im lost,completely lost'..im so so so sorry dears,but then i heard something that made me angry,thst bitch wont stop is it? just stop bothering her,cant you just leave her alone?.
Then i called her and talk to her,she told me her ex was crying..OMFG?!..bloody hell,like a sissy!..really stupiakk..haha..then i told her,sometimes she must be a different person..if she dont,the results wont come out..and i told her that sometimes i dont understand her,it is true..now what i wanna do is,i wanna understand her..i wanna know her more..i wanna know what's in her heart..
okk,im donee here cuz im in a hurry,
last but not least,
Dear,im sorry for all my wrong doings..all i wanna do is to love you day by day..
dun think about anything la now,i duwan u to feel tension..tw2 syg?..i just want you to tell me what's wrong,remember you must change and be a different person,
drink lots of water a dears..hot weather outside..
i miss ya babes,
i love ya babes!
XOXO!
(:
*I want my dear to be happy!!!!!!!!!
duwan her to feel moody,

Friday, January 29, 2010

hmmps.

Dont know how i feel right now,its been a while since i've update my blog...
well,i made her dream come true,i wish i can make all her dreams come true..
i know im nt her #1 yet,i wanna be her #1 so that i can make her feel safe,protected and happy evyday n nite,
my feelings towards her is getting deeper n deeper although she's not mine,i treat her like my #1..i care about her like my #1..i talk to her like my #1..evything i do,she's #1...
i made one of her dreams cme true,drve her..haha!..piy jas,sorry jas! i dont know that u will end up banging the door,sorry ya prefect..haha!..then the next day,we hang out in old town white coffee..i fed her for the first time,haha...datz why la,degil samo..hahah!,next time nak degil lagi x?..hahah!..

dunno what to say alr la,but i know i love her..i found love when im with her..i want her to be happy,i want to drive her again!..haha!

PS,
I dont want you to feel sad a,i want u to feel happy...if sape2 brani,kacau la u..tgk ap i wt..syg u!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

goshh!

Oh my,i wish i can stop loving you but i cant..
Everyday and night,my mind was only you leh,
'wo zhen de bu dong yao zuo shen me le,yin gai zhen me zuo ne?'
Should i or shouldn't i?
if i wait for you,you're stress..confused,dont know who to choose..
but honestly i tell,if you really need him better faster faster back with him..no need to care bout what other people think..
But why when i love someone,
i cant be with them,cant stay in their hard?..why is it so hard?
Goshh,i wish im nt in love but i already fell in love..sighsss~
I know why u want me to forget bout you,not to say i dont know..
but my feelings,its getting deeper,i know its hard for you to let go someone,

Let me tell you why i can fall in love,
1.your eyes are making me sick!
2.your smile is always sincere,
3.your laughter,whenever im not in a mood..i will think the way u laugh..
4.the way you understand someone,
5.the way you care about someone,
6.the way you love ur frenz,
7.the way you love ur special friend,
8.the way you treat a person,
9.the way you miss someone,
10.the way you love someone,

I know its hard for you to choose but if your heart accept other people but not me,itz okay..we're still friends..alwiz will be friends..if you're with others,all i can do is wish u n dat person happiness..and please take care of yourself..taw2?

Saturday, January 23, 2010

If you miss someone,if you love someone

If you miss someone,first thing you must do is greet him/her,
try text-ing each other,know each other's feelings..
if you're feeling unhappy,feel free to tell out the person u miss the most,
dont care whether that person is ur ex or someone else,
most important is you can spend time with that person,

If you love someone,
dont ever deny it,some of them say love is a dream but,
if you really know the meaning of love,you'll know that its a beautiful dream.
if you love someone,
you'll protect him/her no matter what it takes,
whenever he/she needs someone,
accompany him/her..make sure that he's/she's happy..
when he's/she's lonely,
call him/her,talk to him/her..entertain him/her with jokes.
when she's crying,
hug her and dont say a word..let her feel that she's safe with you,
when she's quiet,
ask her what's wrong..
when you see her at her worst,
tell her that she's beautiful..
when she tells you a secret,
keep it safe and untold,
when you call her and she's silent,
just stay on the phone and entertain her,


Here's something for everyone,

Baby wont you tell me why,
there are sadness in your eyes,
i dont wanna say goodbye to you,
love is one big illusion,
i should try to forget,
but there's something left in my head,
you're the one who set it up,
now you're the one to make it stop,
im the one who's feeling lost right now,
now you want me to forget every little thig you said,
but there's something left in my head,
i wont forget the way you're kissing,
the feeling's so strong,
but im not the man your heart is missing,
that's why you go away i know,
you were never satisfied no matter how i tried,
now you wanna say goodbye to me,
love is one big illusion,
there's something left in my head,

Friday, January 22, 2010

my mood is going crazy!

This few days,few weeks,my mood is different..
usually,im happy all the time but for the past few weeks and days,my mood is different,
angry,tension,moody,happy,loads more..what the fuck is happening to me?..can i please fucking know why i'm like that a?..
Recently something happened,a fight?..let me warning to all those indians at BB! before i spread my wings,y'all better shut the fuck up and dont pick a fight with me..
if im angry,y'all will know what happen..dont ever fucking say that i didnt fucking warning your rat ass!..better shut the fuck up im telling y'all!

I've been chosen to play for the school in basketball..what the fuck?..now must train like a dog,sigh..but what to do?..just have fun la,i dont want fights,i just want a clean game..hehe..

What should we name this kind of people a?..why must he ignore her?..just because he saw me and her..what the fuck?!..if you want her,just go ahead la..i dont know what to say..i just want her heart to decide who she really need,if both of you are back together..i wish both of u all happiness la..sincerely,
Please please please treat her nicely,i dont want her to cry,dont want her to feel sad and moody..i just want you to take care of her heart..i dont want her heart to break again..it's hard for me to say this actually but if she really accept u back,i cant do anything right?..so this is it,i wish both of u all happiness if both of you all are back together,if i know her feeling's hurt..you gonna suffer!..im gonna break your rat ass off! please dont be a jealous fucker,open minded a lil bit can a?..just try not to be too jealous..

Thats all for now,may god bless you all! =]

Here's a song,i know i cant have you now but i just want you to read this carefully..

Justin Bieber-Favourite Girl

I always knew you were the best,
the coolest girl i know,
so prettier than all the rest,
the star of my show,
so many times i wish you'd be the one for me,
i never knew you'd get like this,girl what you've done to me,

You're who i'm thinking of,
girl you aint my runner up,
no matter what you're always number one,
-chorus-
My prize possession,
one and only,
i adore ya,
girl i want ya,
the one i can't live without that's you,that's you,
you're my special,
little lady,
the one that makes me crazy,
of all the girls i've ever known its' you,it's you,

My favourite,my favourite,my favourite,my favourtie girl,
my favourite girl,

You used to going out your way to impress these mr wrongs,
but you can be yourself for me,i'll take you as you are,
i know they said believe in love is a dream that cant be real,
so girl let's write a fairytale,
and show them how it feels,

your who i'm thinking of,
and girl you aint my runner up,
no matter what you're always number one,


-chorus-

you take my breath away,
with everything you say,
i just wanna be with you,
my baby,my baby,oh oh,
my miss dont play no games,
treats you no other way than you deserve cause,
you're the girl of my dreams,

-chorus- x2

my favourite,my favourite,my favourite,
my favourite,my favourite girl x2.

-end-

Really dont know my mood right now..sighs..