Sunday, March 28, 2010

Feelings,

How do i feel right now?..
Sick?
Happy?
Unhappy?
In love?
Confused?
Worried?
Which one? well,i'm happy,in love and worried..but about who? with who?..
With dears,im happy when im with dears,im worried about dears,im in love with dears..
Lately,i feel very weird..about what? about feelings,my feelings towards dears,its getting deeper day by day..dears always ask me,when i will have girlfriend..dears,i want you to be mine..i dont want to find others..
Why i can be patient with you? dears wanna know right?
I'll tell,
Before i met dears,i didnt realised what love is..i was playing with others feelings..im a heartless person..i dont care about others feelings..i get angry very fast,if i get angry i dont think twice..i just let it out..i dont care about others,but till one day..i met dears,then only i know how to be patient,i know how to treat a girl nicely..i know what love is..dears can say im not sincere but i just want dears to know that i love dears,
i will still wait,i wish i can know the result now..i just wanna be with dears..i know there are rumors about me..i know..i dont wanna get angry because of it,if they wanna spread it,go ahead..but please dont make me mad..thats it...will you be mine dears?haha!

Recently,my fucking phone spoiled already..thanks to who? jasmine! thanks jasmine,i really appreciate it! is ur bloody afiq important?..no battery,then just dun text la..haiiyooo......fucking forget about it la...because of you,i cant spend much time with dears...because of you la..thanks to u!....im sorry dears because cant spend time with you,im sorry..
i wish i can talk to you now,i wish i can see you now because im missing you my dear!!!!! fucking miss you!!!! fucking wanna see you!!!!!!!!!!
but i cant talk to you,cant spend time with you...hmmps.
but that day,i fetch dears home..it was raining heavily..haha!..why dears feel afraid?..ibu wont eat you want la..haha!..no need to feel afraid..im here...loveyou dears!

Here's something,
It's a song named quando,quando,quando..by michael buble featuring nelly furtado,

Tell me when will you be mine,
tell me quando,quando,quando,
We can share a love devine,
please dont make me wait again,
When will you say yes to me,
tell me quando,quando,quando,
You mean happiness to me,
oh my love please tell me when,
Every moments a day,
everyday seems a lifetime,
Let me show you the way,
To a joy beyond compare,
I cant wait a moment more,
tell me quando,quando,quando,
Say its me that you adore,
And then darling tell me when,



PS,
dears,drink water a..hot weather outside there..must drink..if nto later u get sick...
im missing you !
loveyou hun!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Cant Describe It,

I really dont know how to say,
I can't fucking describe how i feel right now,
Unhappy? Happy?
Angry? Sad?
Which one?! Grrrrrrrrr!!
It's in my head,i just don't know how to express it.
What the fuck is wrong?! Why i'm like this? Is it because im tired,not enough sleep?
Or there's someting's bothering me,
Let's forget about it,


Recently,i get angry easily..why is it? i seriously dont understand,no matter where i go..i'll definitely pick a fight..just to release this stress,to forget about all the problems i'm facing..
But there's one thing that really get on my nerves,oh boyy,dears only know what's this problem is..i feel like breaking that persons face,break his bone,tear his ribs apart..i wish i can do everything on that person..
Dont let me get mad,i'm giving that person a warning!
dont ever make a mistakes,dont do something that i fucking dont like!
I FEEL LIKE KILLING THAT PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm worried bout dears,weather is so hot out there..worried that dears will get sick..
that's why i always call dears to drink water,dears still want stubborn? wan me bite you isit dears?
dears must drink water,drink alot of water..i dont want dears to get sick..
But let me just fucking let this feeling out,
Please dont fucking disturb dears! You still wanna stubborn is it? dont let me see you or you'll get it from me,if you think you want to see what kind of person i can be,go on with this activity...what activity?..disturb dears again and see,i wanna see what you're capable of,
One last warning! Dont disturb dears!

PS,
Dears,must always drink water a..weather is hot outside there..i dont want you to get sick,
if not,i bite you.
miss ya,
love ya babes!
XOXO!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Tired!

Tired of what?!
Tired of basketball training,keep on training..can die keep on doing this..
Everyday train shooting,lay-ups,dribbling,free throw,3 point throw,
If didnt get the ball to enter the ring,push ups or suicide..goshh,it's exhausting..mentally exhausted!
But the first day of training,i forgot to cut my nails..then scratched the captain's face,500 push ups?!..are you crazy? out of your mind?..haha...but luckily i managed to do it..haha!
Goshh,i'm mentally exhausted!
Even though i'm mentally exhausted,but i still think of dears,care bout dears..whether she got drink water or not..
Still can text dears,haha!

But there's one thing,
What is it?
Why is it?
Who is it related to?
Wanna know more?
No no no,haha!
Let me n dears know is enough...haha!

Later tonight continue,
exhausted exhausted!

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Words Can't Describe It

Why i say like that?
It's because i cant describe how i feel right now,
It's upside down,
I wanna go right but im walking to the left side,
I wanna go left but im walking to the right side,
I wanna wake but im still sleeping,
I wanna sleep but im still awake,
Why is this happening to me?
I know i already fell in love,but why im like this?
Is that feeling getting deeper and deeper?
When i close my eyes,
I think of her,
Who is her?
It's Dears,
No matter what i do,
I think of her,
I make it through everynight,
Just for her,
I try not to do something that she doesn't like,
Just for her,
I'd do everything just for her,
I'll keep her warm and safe in the lonely night,
I'll protect her if there's danger,
I'll comfort her if she's moody or unhappy,
I'll always be there for her,
I'll do anything just to make her happy,
I'll make her smile and laugh,
I'll hug her if she's nervous,
I'll kiss her if she cry,
I'll be there for her,no matter where she is,
I'll just be by her side,
Finally,
She understands me,
She know what kind of person i am,
She know when i feel moody,
She know when i feel happy,
She know everything about me,
I wish she know how to go with the flow,
I wish i can be the stars,
Want her to look at the stars,
I wish i can be the moon,
Want her to look at the moon during the lonely night,
I wish i can be everything just for her,
I wish i can tell her that i miss her,
I wish i can tell her that i love her,

Babes,
I want you to read properly,understand what i'm trying to say,
I want you to know that i've always been missing you,
I want you to know that i've been always loving you,
I miss you,
I love you ,
Deep down from my heart to you,


PS,
Babes,drink water..taw2? Dun be stubborn,hot weather tuh babes,drink au..if not,i bite you..
miss ya,
love ya babes!
XOXO!


Here's something,

(Wish you were here)

I dig my toes into the sand,
The ocean looks like,
A thousand diamonds,
Strewn across a blue blanket,

I lean against the wind,
Pretend that i am weightless,
And in this moment,
I'm happy,happy

I wish you were here babes,

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Need the old you badly! II

Let's continue,
sometimes i feel that i treat dear not good enough,
dears,i treat you good or not?
i want you to know,that you've already got a place in my heart,
i want you to know,
why i treat you different from the others,cuz you already steal my heart,
can i have a place in your heart?
i know it's hard for you but i just want you to know how i feel about you,
every day and night,i keep thinking about you,
are you sitting by the window?
are you sleeping soundly?
i wish i can know,
But there's loads of people,i know there are loads of people also want you,
i'm not afraid to say,i'm gonna defend you,
i just want you to know that no matter what question you ask,i will still answer it..
dont you worry for i am here with you,
words cant describe how i feel about you,
it's not to say i'm trying to be sacarstic or what,but it's true..
When the thunder strikes,i think of you,
i wish i can be by your side,
just to keep you safe and secure,
i just wish i can be with you always,
be by your side,
what i'm saying is true babes,
i just want you to know that i miss you and love you!
love ya lots babes!


here's something for dears,

Your eyes,
reflect the universe,
Your eyes,
the deeper truth of everything,
Your eyes absorb the darkest hours,
At night they shine and show the way,
Through the mace,

What i've been looking for,
What i've been craving is right there,
And i'm not waiting anymore,
In the front of a wide open door,

And i dare to walk the path,
That leads away from everything,
I've never known,

So wise,
more than a thousand words,
So wise,
more than any book could say,
Is written in your eyes,
your eyes,

Your eyes are guns that hit right to my heart,
Those eyes,those eyes of yours,
It's those magic eyes!

Love ya Babes!

:
Babes,drink alot of water..hot weather lehh..must drink taw?..if not,i bite you..haha!..taw2 b?..drink water!
miss ya, love ya!

Need the old you badly!

Why need the the 'old' badly?
Cuz dear's different now,since i lied to her..dear told me that i wont get back the old dears,sighs..
it's not to say i wanna lie dears but i have to,i'm sorry i broke dear's heart,i know dears disappointed in me,i have to lie because if i tell dear that i'm stil smoking for sure dear will not accept wan,that's why i lied..sorrys dear,):

But then i wanna tell out something,
Dear changed my life since 16th november 2009,
i'm really thankful cuz i met dear,
before i met dears,my life was upside down,
alcohol is in me,everything is in me,
but with dear,i seriously changed.
started to pray,attend religion class,
it's like i'm a different person,seriously different,
but then there's a feeling,it feels funny,
it's like i'm in love,but with who?
with dears luu,start from that day,
i started calling dears 'Dear' and stuff..
i know we just knew each other but that kind of feeling,
i can't stand it anymore,i have to let it out,
seconds by seconds,
minutes by minutes,
hours by hours,
day by day,
weeks by weeks,
months by months,
dears and me are getting closer,
what i'm feeling,i tell dears,
what dear's feeling,she tell me,
i's like something in us,
i trusted her,she sorta trusted me,
that's why till today,i'm still waiting,
but there's something,i'll tell later,
wait for another post from me,i'm kinda busy now..
laters.