Saturday, April 24, 2010

I am who i am! So don't say anything! Fucks.

Fucks.
Stop talking about things that are not true! Stop talking about shit! Stop talking about anything!
Want me to fight so badly isit?! Problems is not solve yet! All fucking thing that havent happen,dont say anything about it! Want me to break your faces isit?! if want,just tell me..i'm waiting,my fucking fist is waiting for it! Stop involving others in my life,when im angry or whatever it is..dont ever involve others.i fucking dislike it! Please fucking stop it!
If i hear it again,i wont back off...i will fucking keep forward till i get to break your face! mark my fucking words!


Dears,
I know you don't like me to do stupid things..i know but but but sometimes i have to do it in order to solve everything..maybe i need to tell you someday..
Thursday,i drove...before that i told dears that i will chase dears car..know what? i did..at the first,i was at the back of dears car..then next to dears car..what i can see is,dear's smile..i like that smile..can i see that kind of smile always? Can i? Will you do it for me dears? I really wanna see that smile..miss ya dear! love ya dear!
drink water a dear,if you dont drink you wait and see..see what i will do...hehe!
Love ya dears!

Here's something,

You,
Like driving on a sunday,
You,
Your like taking off on monday,
You,
Your like a dream,a dream come true
I,was just a face you never notice,
Now,i'm just trying to be honest,
with myself,with you,with the world

You might think that i'm a fool for,
Fallin' over you,
So tell me what i can do to prove to you,
That is not so hard to do,
Give love a try,
One more time,

I want you to know that i'm on your side,
Give love a try..

Love Ya Dears!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

I wanna know everything about you!

I wanna know everything about you so that i can understand you,know what you're up to..because i know there's so many things about you that i don't know..will you give me a chance to know everything about you? Well,i only know about you around 70%..i need that 30% more tou know everything about you..why i wanna know about you? because if someday we're together,at least you feel comfortable when i'm with you..true or not? right now,do you feel comfortable with me? do you feel happy? or you feel uncomfortable? unhappy? if you feel uncomfortable,unhappy..tell me,what should i do? in order to make you feel comfortable and happy..i cant afford to see you unhappy,uncomfortable with me..i want you to feel happy when you're with me..tell me,what should i do? when i hugged you? when i kissed you?...how do you feel? although im not having a relationship with you..if i do steal your heart,tell me how to keep it? how to not break it?..if others dont appreciate you,well let me tell you..i appreciate you! i need you! sometimes i do hurt your feelings,sometimes i do make you unhappy but i dont really mean it..i just want to cherish all the moments we had..maybe your answer is yes,maybe your answer is no..but at least i cherish all the moments we had..i know right now you're having a problem.what problem is it? its about your past..why cant you forget about it?..just because he deleted you in his friend list..but you dont care about it..its a waste of time..trust me,its a waste of time..the best way to solve this problem is to start a new life and have a new relationship..i know you dont want to have a new relationship..either you still cant let go of the past or you're not ready..i know there must be an answer..you just dont wanna tell me..i cant force you,am i right? i dont care what others wanna say,i dont give a damn at all..i have feelings on you,i admit it..but others are jealous because you're with me 24/7..if not satisfied just come and tell me..simple as that..why is it so hard to tell me that others are not satisfied..come and tell me,we'll solve the problem..right now,let's forget about everything..just let me understand you,know you more..agree or not dears?


Here's something,

Tonight i'm feeling fine,
I'm alone just wasting time,
No friday night movies and no candlelight dinner,

I'm just having conversations,
With the thoughts in my head,
All i hear are angels crying,
Wont they just sing instead,

It would be wrong for me to say,

I dont need that girl by my side,
I dont need that girl in my life,
I dont wanna talk it out,
Or hold her when she cries,

I want to say that she's my kind,
I want to say that she's mine,
I want to tell her,
That i love her more than life,
i love her more than life,

Honestly,
I just need you in my life,
I just wanna tell you that i love you,


Dears,
missed you!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

If wanna fight just say!

Wanna fight is it? not satisfied is it? feel like breaking my face is it? feel like killing me is it? Bring it on! i ain't afraid of you..just gimme time,place,date..i'll be there for sure..you think i'm just a weak and small kid is it? is it? well,you've gotta see what i'm really capable of..dont just give words,say wanna break my face,break my bone..i'm waiting,desperate for it..need it badly...please break my face and my bone as well...come come come..i'm waiting,i wanna see how good you are at this..i wanna learn from you..i'm so weak,i dont even know how to punch a person..i'm really weak..seriously weak..please help me, well,i dont need any BULLSHIT! if wanna see me,come over to my place or you want me to go your place?..which one?! if i see you anywhere,i'm not gonna let you go..i'm gonna teach you a lesson..a lesson that you wont forget till the day you die..you think you're a darn big ass is it?...you're kinda and that makes me feel afraid..mama,please help me! im so scared! Just Fuck Off! wanna fight just say!

About dears,
Dears,i know you dont like me to fight..but sometimes i have to fight..i know you dont understand why i like to fight..i fight for some reason..i'm stress thats why i fight,all the time i just talk about fight,i know you're sick with it..i know you cant adapt with my kind of lifestyle..you cant accept me because i like to fight..but but but...nevermind..forget about it,haha!


**********

The love i found in you,

You are the air i need to breathe,
The river of life inside of me,
You are the half that made me whole,
You are the anchor of my soul,

You're strong when i'm weak,
You're the words when i cant speak,
You never fail to see me through,
That's the love i found in you,

You are my shelter from the storm,
You are the road that leads me home,
Here with you face to face,
I know i've found my place,

Once in every life,
You find the one that's right,
When you say it's true,
That's the love i found in you,

iloveyou Babes!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Stressed Out!

Why am i stressed out? i have no idea about it at all..just feel a little bit stress,but about what??? what is it?..let's forget about it,
I'm gonna start with something else..
For the past few days,me n dears have been talking about feelings..dears told me that she dont want to have any relationship with anyone..why dears?..haha!..why dont you give each other a chance?..i know you're not intrested in having a relationship thing but at least give us a chance to be together..dont care about others..dont give a damn about what people say..im not trying to force you.i just want you to know..no offence dears.lately,my mind keep thinking about dears..miss dears alot! it is not a waste of time waiting for dears,it is not...i know there will be an outcome,i just need to be patient..that's all..i like dear's smile and laughter,why? because i like it alot,its very less chance to see you smile and laugh..that's why i like it..dears dont feel weird anymore,no need to feel weird..okay dears?..well,i've nothing much to write anymore..

Here's something,

With all my heart i love you,baby
Stay with me and you will see
My arms will hold you,baby
Never leave',cause i believe

I'm in love,sweet love
Hear me calling out your name,i feel no shame
Don't you ever go away,it'll always be this way
There's no stronger love in this world
Oh baby no,you're my girl,i'm your man
I'll never go,wait and see,can't be wrong,
Dont you know this is where you belong,

My sweetest dream and lovely baby,
Stay right here,never fear
I will be all that you need,


PS,
Hun,Drink alot of water a..hot weather tu,dun notti a hun..if not i bite you,like a vampire bite its prey..wan anot hun?
Loveyou Hun!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Feelings,

How do i feel right now?..
Sick?
Happy?
Unhappy?
In love?
Confused?
Worried?
Which one? well,i'm happy,in love and worried..but about who? with who?..
With dears,im happy when im with dears,im worried about dears,im in love with dears..
Lately,i feel very weird..about what? about feelings,my feelings towards dears,its getting deeper day by day..dears always ask me,when i will have girlfriend..dears,i want you to be mine..i dont want to find others..
Why i can be patient with you? dears wanna know right?
I'll tell,
Before i met dears,i didnt realised what love is..i was playing with others feelings..im a heartless person..i dont care about others feelings..i get angry very fast,if i get angry i dont think twice..i just let it out..i dont care about others,but till one day..i met dears,then only i know how to be patient,i know how to treat a girl nicely..i know what love is..dears can say im not sincere but i just want dears to know that i love dears,
i will still wait,i wish i can know the result now..i just wanna be with dears..i know there are rumors about me..i know..i dont wanna get angry because of it,if they wanna spread it,go ahead..but please dont make me mad..thats it...will you be mine dears?haha!

Recently,my fucking phone spoiled already..thanks to who? jasmine! thanks jasmine,i really appreciate it! is ur bloody afiq important?..no battery,then just dun text la..haiiyooo......fucking forget about it la...because of you,i cant spend much time with dears...because of you la..thanks to u!....im sorry dears because cant spend time with you,im sorry..
i wish i can talk to you now,i wish i can see you now because im missing you my dear!!!!! fucking miss you!!!! fucking wanna see you!!!!!!!!!!
but i cant talk to you,cant spend time with you...hmmps.
but that day,i fetch dears home..it was raining heavily..haha!..why dears feel afraid?..ibu wont eat you want la..haha!..no need to feel afraid..im here...loveyou dears!

Here's something,
It's a song named quando,quando,quando..by michael buble featuring nelly furtado,

Tell me when will you be mine,
tell me quando,quando,quando,
We can share a love devine,
please dont make me wait again,
When will you say yes to me,
tell me quando,quando,quando,
You mean happiness to me,
oh my love please tell me when,
Every moments a day,
everyday seems a lifetime,
Let me show you the way,
To a joy beyond compare,
I cant wait a moment more,
tell me quando,quando,quando,
Say its me that you adore,
And then darling tell me when,



PS,
dears,drink water a..hot weather outside there..must drink..if nto later u get sick...
im missing you !
loveyou hun!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Cant Describe It,

I really dont know how to say,
I can't fucking describe how i feel right now,
Unhappy? Happy?
Angry? Sad?
Which one?! Grrrrrrrrr!!
It's in my head,i just don't know how to express it.
What the fuck is wrong?! Why i'm like this? Is it because im tired,not enough sleep?
Or there's someting's bothering me,
Let's forget about it,


Recently,i get angry easily..why is it? i seriously dont understand,no matter where i go..i'll definitely pick a fight..just to release this stress,to forget about all the problems i'm facing..
But there's one thing that really get on my nerves,oh boyy,dears only know what's this problem is..i feel like breaking that persons face,break his bone,tear his ribs apart..i wish i can do everything on that person..
Dont let me get mad,i'm giving that person a warning!
dont ever make a mistakes,dont do something that i fucking dont like!
I FEEL LIKE KILLING THAT PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm worried bout dears,weather is so hot out there..worried that dears will get sick..
that's why i always call dears to drink water,dears still want stubborn? wan me bite you isit dears?
dears must drink water,drink alot of water..i dont want dears to get sick..
But let me just fucking let this feeling out,
Please dont fucking disturb dears! You still wanna stubborn is it? dont let me see you or you'll get it from me,if you think you want to see what kind of person i can be,go on with this activity...what activity?..disturb dears again and see,i wanna see what you're capable of,
One last warning! Dont disturb dears!

PS,
Dears,must always drink water a..weather is hot outside there..i dont want you to get sick,
if not,i bite you.
miss ya,
love ya babes!
XOXO!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Tired!

Tired of what?!
Tired of basketball training,keep on training..can die keep on doing this..
Everyday train shooting,lay-ups,dribbling,free throw,3 point throw,
If didnt get the ball to enter the ring,push ups or suicide..goshh,it's exhausting..mentally exhausted!
But the first day of training,i forgot to cut my nails..then scratched the captain's face,500 push ups?!..are you crazy? out of your mind?..haha...but luckily i managed to do it..haha!
Goshh,i'm mentally exhausted!
Even though i'm mentally exhausted,but i still think of dears,care bout dears..whether she got drink water or not..
Still can text dears,haha!

But there's one thing,
What is it?
Why is it?
Who is it related to?
Wanna know more?
No no no,haha!
Let me n dears know is enough...haha!

Later tonight continue,
exhausted exhausted!

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Words Can't Describe It

Why i say like that?
It's because i cant describe how i feel right now,
It's upside down,
I wanna go right but im walking to the left side,
I wanna go left but im walking to the right side,
I wanna wake but im still sleeping,
I wanna sleep but im still awake,
Why is this happening to me?
I know i already fell in love,but why im like this?
Is that feeling getting deeper and deeper?
When i close my eyes,
I think of her,
Who is her?
It's Dears,
No matter what i do,
I think of her,
I make it through everynight,
Just for her,
I try not to do something that she doesn't like,
Just for her,
I'd do everything just for her,
I'll keep her warm and safe in the lonely night,
I'll protect her if there's danger,
I'll comfort her if she's moody or unhappy,
I'll always be there for her,
I'll do anything just to make her happy,
I'll make her smile and laugh,
I'll hug her if she's nervous,
I'll kiss her if she cry,
I'll be there for her,no matter where she is,
I'll just be by her side,
Finally,
She understands me,
She know what kind of person i am,
She know when i feel moody,
She know when i feel happy,
She know everything about me,
I wish she know how to go with the flow,
I wish i can be the stars,
Want her to look at the stars,
I wish i can be the moon,
Want her to look at the moon during the lonely night,
I wish i can be everything just for her,
I wish i can tell her that i miss her,
I wish i can tell her that i love her,

Babes,
I want you to read properly,understand what i'm trying to say,
I want you to know that i've always been missing you,
I want you to know that i've been always loving you,
I miss you,
I love you ,
Deep down from my heart to you,


PS,
Babes,drink water..taw2? Dun be stubborn,hot weather tuh babes,drink au..if not,i bite you..
miss ya,
love ya babes!
XOXO!


Here's something,

(Wish you were here)

I dig my toes into the sand,
The ocean looks like,
A thousand diamonds,
Strewn across a blue blanket,

I lean against the wind,
Pretend that i am weightless,
And in this moment,
I'm happy,happy

I wish you were here babes,

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Need the old you badly! II

Let's continue,
sometimes i feel that i treat dear not good enough,
dears,i treat you good or not?
i want you to know,that you've already got a place in my heart,
i want you to know,
why i treat you different from the others,cuz you already steal my heart,
can i have a place in your heart?
i know it's hard for you but i just want you to know how i feel about you,
every day and night,i keep thinking about you,
are you sitting by the window?
are you sleeping soundly?
i wish i can know,
But there's loads of people,i know there are loads of people also want you,
i'm not afraid to say,i'm gonna defend you,
i just want you to know that no matter what question you ask,i will still answer it..
dont you worry for i am here with you,
words cant describe how i feel about you,
it's not to say i'm trying to be sacarstic or what,but it's true..
When the thunder strikes,i think of you,
i wish i can be by your side,
just to keep you safe and secure,
i just wish i can be with you always,
be by your side,
what i'm saying is true babes,
i just want you to know that i miss you and love you!
love ya lots babes!


here's something for dears,

Your eyes,
reflect the universe,
Your eyes,
the deeper truth of everything,
Your eyes absorb the darkest hours,
At night they shine and show the way,
Through the mace,

What i've been looking for,
What i've been craving is right there,
And i'm not waiting anymore,
In the front of a wide open door,

And i dare to walk the path,
That leads away from everything,
I've never known,

So wise,
more than a thousand words,
So wise,
more than any book could say,
Is written in your eyes,
your eyes,

Your eyes are guns that hit right to my heart,
Those eyes,those eyes of yours,
It's those magic eyes!

Love ya Babes!

:
Babes,drink alot of water..hot weather lehh..must drink taw?..if not,i bite you..haha!..taw2 b?..drink water!
miss ya, love ya!

Need the old you badly!

Why need the the 'old' badly?
Cuz dear's different now,since i lied to her..dear told me that i wont get back the old dears,sighs..
it's not to say i wanna lie dears but i have to,i'm sorry i broke dear's heart,i know dears disappointed in me,i have to lie because if i tell dear that i'm stil smoking for sure dear will not accept wan,that's why i lied..sorrys dear,):

But then i wanna tell out something,
Dear changed my life since 16th november 2009,
i'm really thankful cuz i met dear,
before i met dears,my life was upside down,
alcohol is in me,everything is in me,
but with dear,i seriously changed.
started to pray,attend religion class,
it's like i'm a different person,seriously different,
but then there's a feeling,it feels funny,
it's like i'm in love,but with who?
with dears luu,start from that day,
i started calling dears 'Dear' and stuff..
i know we just knew each other but that kind of feeling,
i can't stand it anymore,i have to let it out,
seconds by seconds,
minutes by minutes,
hours by hours,
day by day,
weeks by weeks,
months by months,
dears and me are getting closer,
what i'm feeling,i tell dears,
what dear's feeling,she tell me,
i's like something in us,
i trusted her,she sorta trusted me,
that's why till today,i'm still waiting,
but there's something,i'll tell later,
wait for another post from me,i'm kinda busy now..
laters.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

I'm still gonna go with the flow,haha!

First of all,
I'm laughing like a psycho right now..haha!
Okay,let's make it right.
I know you want me to have a relationship now,and you'll be happy.
not to say i don't want but i don't have any feelings on them..
It's true,there are girls that had feelings on me but i dont have feelings on them,if i had relationship with them..what are they gonna get? HURT,they're gonna get hurt..and everyone describe me as a player,i am a player but i'm not now..everyone can say i'm a player who only know how to break people's heart..but do all of you understand me?..answer me,do all of you understand me.what's in me.who i really need?..do all of you understand?
When i wanna do something good,sure there are obstacle..c'mon.what the fuck is this?..
If i do something bad,all of you will stab me in the back..
Now i'm fucking trying to do good stuff,why can't y'all let me do some good stuff..
Why must i have obstacle when i'm up to something,please fuck me now!
When i had feelings on someone,sure there are tons of people also will have feelings on them,
If y'all want it so badly,fine..i'll give,you take..do i look like i give a fuck?..c'mon man,i don't give a fuck,not a fucking thing at all...NONE,
If y'all are not satisfied about i had feelings on someone,c'mon and please fuck with me..y'all can have that person,i don't mind..
Y'all can say i'm bullshitting,double face fucker,pretend to be good..it's up to all of you,if i said something bad..don't ever say that i didn't give a warning,
Don't even fucking say that i care bout girls more than friend,i give my friends 50%,girls that i love 50%..sometimes please understand me,what i'm really up to..
I'm getting sick and tired of all of you,don't force me to do bad things..i don't wanna do it anymore..i try to hold myself back now..
Seriously,i'm sick and tired of being a good person..i wish i can finish this fucking year faster,i dont wanna be good anymore..it's time for me to be bad again,it's time for all of you to see who am i,what kind of person i really am..
I don't give a damn shit about it,i don't give a chance..
Wanna play games with me,i'll play with all of you..
REMEMBER,
Anything all of you are not satisfied with,come and talk to me..

*I'm laughing like a bastard now..haha!

Bout feelings,No fucking comment!

For the girls that are waiting for me,
Look,i'm sorry..i just dont have feelings on all of you..i'm sorry,
but no matter what,we're still friends.

To dears,
I'm not repaying you by loving you,
You've change my life,
But i don't know why i have feelings on you,
It's okay if you dont wanna accept me,i just want us to be friends..
You must understand,why i treat you like my girlfriend..
You can say i'm stupid for waiting you,
Told you that i love you although we just only knew each other..
Neways,thanks for changing my life,i appreciate it..


*laughing like a psycho person now,
*please understand me,
*look into me,and see what's inside me,
*appreciate it peeps,

Start it with a smile,
End it with a smile,
:)

Friday, February 19, 2010

Missin' You!

17/2/09,

3rd day of chinese new year,
Us,consist of me,Dears and jasmine...
Mid Valley,
Woke dear up at 7,pity her..too early..haha..but she managed to woke up..
then we start texting each other luu,
Dears told me,she like the way i woke her up,thanks dears..can i wake you up everyday?
then at 9,i called dear again n wake her up again..but then we're texting.haha!
10++,we reached to our destination point..meet up with jasmine,
Ahhhh,movies..'valentines day'..but then i forgot to booked the tickets..then jasmine booked the tickets..then we hanged out at Burger King,talking about Burger King..near there was a shop,a shop that sells camera,television and etc.
While we're hanging out,suddenly there's a song played in there..goshh,those kind of song's driving me crazy..why they suddenly play that kind of songs?..haha!
But then they were afraid,why?..weirdness..there's no need to worry..just cheezle and dun worry..haha!
Then we walked around mid valley,gardens..we walked,we talked,we laughed..it was fun though..
Then at 1,3 of us went and line up at the reservation counter..then its our turn to collect the tickets..that guy ask for a reservation number..jasmine forgot the number..What?!..i say What?!..why jasmine? why?..the cinema was f-ing crowded!..we decided not to watch movie..so we took a walk to The Gardens,hanged out in borders..borders,something happened over there..i cant tell..let me n dears know about it..haha!..in mandarin,'Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi'..it means,a secret that can't be told..then we took a walk again,this time to Mph Bookstore,I played with the bible..stupidity..then i did something unexpected..what is it?..no no no,i already promise dear not to tell..but then we have pictures of it..hehe..PNC..the pictures are hidden,everything's safe..haha!..
Then bla bla bla,cant tell because its a secret between the three of us..hehe..
Thats it.

Something for dear,


I talk to you but it's not the same as touching you,
And everytime u whisper my name,i wanna run to you,
We'll be together,it wont be long,
But it feels like forever,and it's hard to be strong,

Baby cause' i'm missin' you now,
And it's drivin' me crazy,
How i'm needin' you baby,
I'm missin' you now,
Can't wait till i'm alone with you,
To show you how im missing you,

Wishin' you were here by my side is all that i can do,
Got my arms around my pillow at night,they should be holdin' you,
Thought i was stronger,how could i know,
I cant take this much longer,
It's so hard on my soul,

Baby i just cant wait,
Till i see your face,
Chase away the loneliness inside,

When you're close to my heart,
Right here in my arms,
Then and only then,
Will i be satisfied?
I'm missing you now..
Iloveya babes!


PS:
Dear,drink lots of water a..hot weather..u will easily get sick if u dun drink water..must drink au..if nt,i bite u..hehe..love ya babes!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

First of all,
i wanna say that im sorry to Izwanie cuz she's angry..im sorry dearie,(:
why is she angry?
she's angry because of us(me,mira,jas)..go without her,i went back home without telling her,i wanna tell her after she meet her ex..i duwan to disturb,
when i was in car,my mind was only you..im thinking of you,will you be lonely after i leave you alone?..will you miss me?..can she take care of herself when im not around?..gossh,im worried!
Valentine's coming,why must it falls on the same day as chinese new year?..why why why?
I want to celebrate with you...hmmps.
Well,its okay..i can celebrate it later..hehe..
Oh ya,before i forget..Wednesday,i tried to kiss her..but she dun let me kiss leh..haha!..dears,u said tha you're waiting for my kiss..but why when i wanna kiss u dat time,u dun let leh??..
Then on friday,we were planning to go mid valley for a movie,but then..aiyaa..pity you dears,then u went back home and changed..while waiting,i hang out with jas..it was quite fun though.haha..
then we hang out at SR(Secret Recipe)..jas ordered cake,amira too..i ordered lasagna for her..then i did something unexpected,i tried to kiss her!..haha!..but it did not turn out well..haha!..so while hanging out,suddenly leh..mira and dear said there's hair in that lasagna..WTF?!..disgusting!..yuckss!!!!!!!!...stupiakk gehh SR..then we complained,so we dont have to pay for the lasagna..haha!..
then we went back to WAHANA,then i called her to come down and see me..dear called me to go up,ok.i went up and called her to come out and see me..my plan was to kiss her,then i called her to look at me and i said i wont do anything..but then i tried to move my lips close to her lips..well,our lips did touched but just a lil bit..haha...then she sulk,then i ask and ask and ask..then she said dun ever2 text her or call her..i was thinking,'What should i do? im lost,completely lost'..im so so so sorry dears,but then i heard something that made me angry,thst bitch wont stop is it? just stop bothering her,cant you just leave her alone?.
Then i called her and talk to her,she told me her ex was crying..OMFG?!..bloody hell,like a sissy!..really stupiakk..haha..then i told her,sometimes she must be a different person..if she dont,the results wont come out..and i told her that sometimes i dont understand her,it is true..now what i wanna do is,i wanna understand her..i wanna know her more..i wanna know what's in her heart..
okk,im donee here cuz im in a hurry,
last but not least,
Dear,im sorry for all my wrong doings..all i wanna do is to love you day by day..
dun think about anything la now,i duwan u to feel tension..tw2 syg?..i just want you to tell me what's wrong,remember you must change and be a different person,
drink lots of water a dears..hot weather outside..
i miss ya babes,
i love ya babes!
XOXO!
(:
*I want my dear to be happy!!!!!!!!!
duwan her to feel moody,

Friday, January 29, 2010

hmmps.

Dont know how i feel right now,its been a while since i've update my blog...
well,i made her dream come true,i wish i can make all her dreams come true..
i know im nt her #1 yet,i wanna be her #1 so that i can make her feel safe,protected and happy evyday n nite,
my feelings towards her is getting deeper n deeper although she's not mine,i treat her like my #1..i care about her like my #1..i talk to her like my #1..evything i do,she's #1...
i made one of her dreams cme true,drve her..haha!..piy jas,sorry jas! i dont know that u will end up banging the door,sorry ya prefect..haha!..then the next day,we hang out in old town white coffee..i fed her for the first time,haha...datz why la,degil samo..hahah!,next time nak degil lagi x?..hahah!..

dunno what to say alr la,but i know i love her..i found love when im with her..i want her to be happy,i want to drive her again!..haha!

PS,
I dont want you to feel sad a,i want u to feel happy...if sape2 brani,kacau la u..tgk ap i wt..syg u!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

goshh!

Oh my,i wish i can stop loving you but i cant..
Everyday and night,my mind was only you leh,
'wo zhen de bu dong yao zuo shen me le,yin gai zhen me zuo ne?'
Should i or shouldn't i?
if i wait for you,you're stress..confused,dont know who to choose..
but honestly i tell,if you really need him better faster faster back with him..no need to care bout what other people think..
But why when i love someone,
i cant be with them,cant stay in their hard?..why is it so hard?
Goshh,i wish im nt in love but i already fell in love..sighsss~
I know why u want me to forget bout you,not to say i dont know..
but my feelings,its getting deeper,i know its hard for you to let go someone,

Let me tell you why i can fall in love,
1.your eyes are making me sick!
2.your smile is always sincere,
3.your laughter,whenever im not in a mood..i will think the way u laugh..
4.the way you understand someone,
5.the way you care about someone,
6.the way you love ur frenz,
7.the way you love ur special friend,
8.the way you treat a person,
9.the way you miss someone,
10.the way you love someone,

I know its hard for you to choose but if your heart accept other people but not me,itz okay..we're still friends..alwiz will be friends..if you're with others,all i can do is wish u n dat person happiness..and please take care of yourself..taw2?

Saturday, January 23, 2010

If you miss someone,if you love someone

If you miss someone,first thing you must do is greet him/her,
try text-ing each other,know each other's feelings..
if you're feeling unhappy,feel free to tell out the person u miss the most,
dont care whether that person is ur ex or someone else,
most important is you can spend time with that person,

If you love someone,
dont ever deny it,some of them say love is a dream but,
if you really know the meaning of love,you'll know that its a beautiful dream.
if you love someone,
you'll protect him/her no matter what it takes,
whenever he/she needs someone,
accompany him/her..make sure that he's/she's happy..
when he's/she's lonely,
call him/her,talk to him/her..entertain him/her with jokes.
when she's crying,
hug her and dont say a word..let her feel that she's safe with you,
when she's quiet,
ask her what's wrong..
when you see her at her worst,
tell her that she's beautiful..
when she tells you a secret,
keep it safe and untold,
when you call her and she's silent,
just stay on the phone and entertain her,


Here's something for everyone,

Baby wont you tell me why,
there are sadness in your eyes,
i dont wanna say goodbye to you,
love is one big illusion,
i should try to forget,
but there's something left in my head,
you're the one who set it up,
now you're the one to make it stop,
im the one who's feeling lost right now,
now you want me to forget every little thig you said,
but there's something left in my head,
i wont forget the way you're kissing,
the feeling's so strong,
but im not the man your heart is missing,
that's why you go away i know,
you were never satisfied no matter how i tried,
now you wanna say goodbye to me,
love is one big illusion,
there's something left in my head,

Friday, January 22, 2010

my mood is going crazy!

This few days,few weeks,my mood is different..
usually,im happy all the time but for the past few weeks and days,my mood is different,
angry,tension,moody,happy,loads more..what the fuck is happening to me?..can i please fucking know why i'm like that a?..
Recently something happened,a fight?..let me warning to all those indians at BB! before i spread my wings,y'all better shut the fuck up and dont pick a fight with me..
if im angry,y'all will know what happen..dont ever fucking say that i didnt fucking warning your rat ass!..better shut the fuck up im telling y'all!

I've been chosen to play for the school in basketball..what the fuck?..now must train like a dog,sigh..but what to do?..just have fun la,i dont want fights,i just want a clean game..hehe..

What should we name this kind of people a?..why must he ignore her?..just because he saw me and her..what the fuck?!..if you want her,just go ahead la..i dont know what to say..i just want her heart to decide who she really need,if both of you are back together..i wish both of u all happiness la..sincerely,
Please please please treat her nicely,i dont want her to cry,dont want her to feel sad and moody..i just want you to take care of her heart..i dont want her heart to break again..it's hard for me to say this actually but if she really accept u back,i cant do anything right?..so this is it,i wish both of u all happiness if both of you all are back together,if i know her feeling's hurt..you gonna suffer!..im gonna break your rat ass off! please dont be a jealous fucker,open minded a lil bit can a?..just try not to be too jealous..

Thats all for now,may god bless you all! =]

Here's a song,i know i cant have you now but i just want you to read this carefully..

Justin Bieber-Favourite Girl

I always knew you were the best,
the coolest girl i know,
so prettier than all the rest,
the star of my show,
so many times i wish you'd be the one for me,
i never knew you'd get like this,girl what you've done to me,

You're who i'm thinking of,
girl you aint my runner up,
no matter what you're always number one,
-chorus-
My prize possession,
one and only,
i adore ya,
girl i want ya,
the one i can't live without that's you,that's you,
you're my special,
little lady,
the one that makes me crazy,
of all the girls i've ever known its' you,it's you,

My favourite,my favourite,my favourite,my favourtie girl,
my favourite girl,

You used to going out your way to impress these mr wrongs,
but you can be yourself for me,i'll take you as you are,
i know they said believe in love is a dream that cant be real,
so girl let's write a fairytale,
and show them how it feels,

your who i'm thinking of,
and girl you aint my runner up,
no matter what you're always number one,


-chorus-

you take my breath away,
with everything you say,
i just wanna be with you,
my baby,my baby,oh oh,
my miss dont play no games,
treats you no other way than you deserve cause,
you're the girl of my dreams,

-chorus- x2

my favourite,my favourite,my favourite,
my favourite,my favourite girl x2.

-end-

Really dont know my mood right now..sighs..

Saturday, January 16, 2010

My feeling towards you is getting deeper.

My feelings towards you is getting deeper because i feel that we're more close,
when you cant sleep,i accompany you till you sleep,
when you're sad,i try my best to comfort you,
when you had problems,im always ready to listen and then solve it for you,
Why i always send you home?..for sure u feel weird right?
i send you home is because im worried,
if you go home by bus,u must walk so far and that area is not safe at al,now only i know..
i wanna make sure that u reach home safely,want you to feel happy always,
maybe i cant guide you in studies,but i can teach you what does life means because i've been through many kinds of situation,
i can show you my love,but i cant because you need to study,
i'll wait,u mark my words,
after SPM,i'm gonna show you and proof to you how much i love you,
and im sure i'll wait for you,
Everytime when i see you smile,it makes me feel happy,
when i see you laugh,it makes me feel happier,
if i can see you smile and lauh everyday,it makes me feel more and more and more happy!

Goshh,
yesterday was the first day of basketball training,why the coach so stupid a?..dont understand at all,like i dont know the basics,wtf?!..c'mon la,i played against your team last year..you think i really dont know how to play basketball a?..you're really stupid la,i dont want you to be my coach,why didnt y'all help me?..he asked who want him to train please raise up the hand,why did y'all raise up your hand?..aiyoo..nevermind la,i'll proof to the coach that i'll make a big difference this year,mark my words coach!..if you try to do stupid things again,i'm gonna break your face!..haha! but it was a tiring day!

That's all i can say la,teehee (:

To my dears,

I love how your eyes close,
whenever you kiss me,
and when i'm away from you,
i love how you miss me,
i love the way you always treat me tenderly,
but darling most of all,
i love how you love me,
i love how your heartbeats,
whenever i hold you,
i love how you think of me,
without being told to,
i love the way your touch is always heavenly,
but darling most of all,
i love how you love me,
i love the way your toush is always heavenly,
but darling most of all,
i love how you love me,
i love how you hug me,
i love how you spueeze me,tease me,please me,
love how you love me,
i love how you love me,
i love how you love me,
i love how you love me,
-end-

Notes,
Babes,i know i cant be with you right now..but i'll always wait for you,no matter how long it takes,
One thing i wanna say is,
I Love You Dear!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

for you my dears!

Glenn Frey-The One You Love,

I know you need a friend,
someone you can talk to,
who will understand what you're goin through,
when it comes to love,
there's no easy answer,
only you can say,
what you're gonna do,
i heard you on the phone,
you took his number,
said you weren't alone,
but you call him soon,
isn't he the guy,
guy who left you crying,
isn't he the one,
who made you blue,
when you remember thos nights in his arms,
you know you gotta make up your mind,
are you gonna stay with the one who love you,
or are you going back to the one you love,
someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you,
someone's gonna thank the stars above,
what you're gonna say,
when he comes over,
there's no easy way to see this through,
all the broken dreams,
all the dissapointment,
oh girl,what you're gonna do,
your heart's keep sayin',
it's just not fair,
but still you gotta make up your mind,
are you gonna stay with the one who love you,
or are you going back to the one you love,
someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you,
someone's gonna thank the stars above,
-end-

Go with the flow my dear!~

I wanna know what are you thinking,i really wanna know..teehee!

i know i love you,but i cant be with you.
because SPM is here,thats why i wait,i never get sick n tired of you,i dont care what other people think about you,i promise you i will take care of you..if you dont want to believe it and you wwnt me to proof it to you,i will..but after SPM..i promise you,i will show you how much i love you.
i never get bored text-ing you,care about you,even hear u scolding people,i never give up on you,alot of people dont believe that i can show you my love,fine..i'll show them..all of my friends that dont believe me,watch out..
maybe because im crazy,hyper till the max..thats why they dont believe me..its okay..one day,y'all will see me n her together,

PS,
Try go with the flow dears,try not to deny it..i know i can love you and i know you can love me as well,i'll wait for you..i dont care what people say,i'll still wait for you..i promise you,i'll proof to you my love,you wait my dear!...iloveyou!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahha!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

I don't care what others think about you,

I dont care what others think about you,

If you all dont know who i am,
just try to talk bad about her,
go ahead,if she's hurt.
your gonna suffer,i'll make sure you remember the lesson that i teach you,
if you dare,you go ahead and talk about her,
if she's hurt,i dont give a damn who is it. where you're from,from what kind of background you some from,
im gonna give you a present,a big one.
please dont ever talk bad about her,kays?
i dont want her to feel that she's bad.
i know she's a good person,

4/1/10,
first day of school,
first day of everything,
when i woke up in the morning,i think of her,
after i bathed and prayed,i quickly grab my phone and text her,
greet her,make sure that she's happy in the morning,
accompany her in the morning before she go to school,
even in school,i think of her,what is she doing at school now,
is she feeling cold?sick?unhappy?
in fact im worried,worried that she'll feel cold,worried that she'll feel sick,
nothing usual happen at school,luckily my hair didnt get caught..hehe.
-end-

Few days ago,i involved in an accident..but not a big accident,hehe
who cares?..its not my fault,i dont want it to happen.
after that guy hit me,he said nothing..what the fuck?!..
i was so pissed off,i feel like bashing him up,but my mum was there and i dont want to show her how violent i am although she already knew it since i was born,haha!
then the next day,my leg started to feel pain,very pain indeed,
went and consulted a doctor,
i dont give a damn,it was 6.30..i went and met that guy,i paid him 150..but then he asked more,that time my mum wasnt there and this is it! my chance to get some revenge!
i bashed him like a dog,i bashed him till he apologize,teach him a damn fucking lesson from me.
i feel like breaking his bone,
it was a relieve! so syiokk! haha!

thats all i can tell la,hehe

Here's something for her,

I remember the times we spent together all those drives,
we had a million questions,
all about our lives,
and when we got to New York,
everything felt right,
i wish you were here with me,
Tonight,
i remember the days we spent together,
were not enough,
it used to feel like dreaming except we always woke up,

Tonight i've fallen and i cant get up,
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up,
and every night i miss you,
i can just look up and know the stars are holding,
holding you tonight.


Here's a song for everyone,
Besame mucho-Andrea Bocelli

****
Besame,
besame mucho,
como si fuera esta noche la ultima vez,
besame,
besame mucho,
que tengo mierdo a perderte perderte desques,
quiero ternete muy cerca,
mirarme en tus ojos,
estar junto a ti,
piensa que talvez manana estare muy lejos,
muy lejos de aqui,

besame,
besame mucho,
como si fuera esta noche la ultima vez,
besame,
besame mucho,
que tengo mierdo a perderte perderte desques,
quero tenerte muy cerca,
mirarme en tus ojos,
estar junto a ti,
piensa que talvez manana estare muy lejos,
muy lejos de aqui,
besame,
besame mucho,
como si fuera esta noche la ultima vez,
besame, besame mucho,
que tengo mierdo a perderte perderte desques.
-end-

Meaning of 'Besame Mucho' is,
Kiss me a lot,